May 8, 2007 8:54PM
A recurring nightmare that I have is waking up, and finding myself all grayed out,balding (just a little), having a big fat gut, waiting for a heart attack at the ripe old age of 72, and STILL here in Japan, working, and trying to earn money to send my grandkids and THEIR kids to college.
I would then receive a video phone call from my grand daughter Tundra(don’t ask me..I did not name her):
"Lolo bakit wala pa yung padala mo sa banko? Sabi ni Lola, pangako mo daw ngayong katapusan. Atsaka Lolo Edsel….si Lolo Pierre nga pala eh kelangan din ipa-checkup dahil yung kanyang pigsa sa magkabilang singit eh lumaki na naman daw…baka kelangan na operahin"
Feeling dazed and confused as I could not associate the name LOLO PIERRE with anyone I knew I ask my grand daughter: "uh..teka Tundra…sino nga ba uli si Lolo Pierre?"
Tundra would reply non-chalantly "Ah, Lolo, nakalimutan mo ba? Yung bagong ka-MU ni Lola na foren-ger…May isang buwan na kayo ‘break’ ni Lola di ba?"
Noooooooo!!!!
I’d wake up sweating and look immediately in the mirror.I am still 33 years old. Check. Still in Japan, working. Check. Married with one daughter. Check.
All of which brings me to the point of this day’s blog. I really really need to set my goals so that the nightmare above does not become a reality. I’ll be frank with you, dear blog reader. I wish I was back in the Philippines with my wife and baby. I miss them SOO much, that it hurts. It sometimes seems unfair, but at the same time, in life, sometimes sacrifices need to be made. Which is why I havde decided to set my goals and do my best to stay on target. However….
In order to set one’s goals, one must first decide what they want in life.
I have asked myself the question so many times: What is it that I want in life?
And here are my honest answers:
1. I want to be a man who runs the race and finishes it. I want to be a good Christian
2. I want to be a good and loving father to my daughter and good loving and loyal husband to my wife
3. I want to be a good son and brother too
4. I want to be healthy and live a comfortable life(have my own house and our own car), spending most of my time with my family and doing the things I love doing like playing sports (basketball) and playing the guitar
5. I want to be a teacher and coach, to make a difference to people’s lives, in my own small way
6. I want to have financial independence and a decent savings to provide for
my family..and for myself when I retire
7. I want to have the ability to travel to another country every once in a while
wow, seven goals! they seem achievable right? kayang kaya kaya?
Under those seven goals, I think I should put in what I call SSTG, an acronym for SUB SHORT TERM GOALS.
Basically as SSTG is a set of short term achievable goals that when developed over time, will lead to the achievment of those main goals.
My SSTGs are as follows:
1.1 Continue to attend weekly bible studies class, and Sunday services
1.2 Strengthen the habit of reading the bible daily, and spending time, having "conversations"
with God.
2.1 Maintain good communication with my wife and daughter despite our current long distance. Express to them in any way how much I love them…everyday.
2.2 Pray
2.3 Pray
2.4 See 2.2 and 2.3
2.5 Set the goal to be with them PERMANENTLY within the end of next year
3. Do my best to be spend time with my Dad when I am in the Philippines. Call more often. Same thing to my sisters. Avoid "Cats In the Cradle" syndrome at all costs!

Time with the family: A goal worth pursuing
4.1 Hit target weight by my 34th bday (61 kg). Bye bye Coke belly! Eat healthier and exercise more.
4.2 Save save save. Ride taxis as a last resort. Have zero debts/loans/mortgages by end of the year.
4.3 Give back more to God, who has given me EVERYTHING. Money is an instrument to reach your goals, but I do not want it to be my god.
As for numbers 5, 6 and 7, I guess they all go back to 4.2, gaining financial independence.
The bible says in Prov 19:21 "Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails"
The Bible ALSO says in Prov 16:3 "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed"
So yes, these are my goals, my heart’s desires, but I do realize that in the end, it will be God’s will that will prevail. Bottom line…my hope and prayer is that may my desires be in ALIGNMENT with God’s plan.
Sana nga tuloy tuloy na to. To all my friends reading this…please kindly say a quick prayer for me, would you?
I hope and pray to stay on target, one day at a time. And maybe, just maybe…the nightmares will pave the way for a dream that comes true.
Thank you for reading and God bless
-Lolo Pierre using Edsel’s PC